one bright morning

weeeeek

well people: i've been flying solo ever since we flew back from chicago and the wife and kid(s) flew to canada (looks better every day) the next morning. it's been quite the week. for starters i got ancy (something must change) and rearanged the entire house (mania) and discovered the true meaning of feng shui (it flows like gravy). this weekend a kid at work sent me to the e.r. to get my nuts checked (vikadin). i was given disability for a day and went to goldbar river with a buddy and his two dogs to soak in the cool water (therapy is never what you'd think). the next morning i got a new job at the hospital as a court transport (thank you Jesus) and was rear-ended on my first official day of duty (damnit damnit). needless to say i've been creatively constapated (it's there, just not ready... you know) relying on good tunes (eels, bazan, boy least likely to, wolfmother), dear friends (bryan, shannon, chuck, rob, jess), late night movies (depressing ones... you fill in the blank) and three buck chucks (sponsored graciously by trader joe's) to be the hot air under my scruffy wings. looking fwd to getting the family back on friday (home will come home)...

oaxaca: street level

sin palabras (without words)...

oaxaca

please pray for my friends and family in oaxaca city in southern mexico. over a month ago i posted this about the socio-political unrest. things were quiet for a few weeks but a couple days ago everything has escalated. roads are blocked, people are looting and the police remain more of a problem than not. it's frightening to watch my home town go to shit with people i love in the thick of it. if you are interrested, google oaxaca in the news search.
Senor Jesucristo, Hijo de Dios, ten piedad de nosotros, vil pecadores.

de vuelta (back)

gone...

... be back soon.

desire

"what drives you? what are your core desires that shape you as a person, your life, your relationships, your hour-to-hour existence?" this question was poised this afternoon in class. i answered this question by looking at my day and the areas that draw my attention. i was struck with the realization that much of who i am is shaped by a deep desire to find the proverbial "diamond in the ruff"- this is why i devour books, search for new music, peruse thrift stores, recycle ideas... will i ever be satisfied? can i become less of a user and still want more out of life? how could this desire be directed more redemptively? should i learn to rest in what is instead of always push away and towards whatever lies beyond? and how does my view of hope play in? a good question begets more questions... ask it to yourself.
here is a beautiful quote linking desire to spirituality:
It is an unquenchable fire, a restlessness, a longing, a disquiet, a hunger, a loneliness, a gnawing nostalgia, a wildness that cannot be tamed, a congenital all-embracing ache that lies at the center of human experience and is the ultimate force that drives everything else. This dis-ease is universal. Desire gives no exemptions. It does however admit to different moods and faces. Sometimes it hits us as plain dissatisfaction, frustration, and aching. At other times its grip is not felt as painful at all, burns as a deep energy, as something beautiful, as an inexorable pull, more important than anything else inside us, toward love, beauty, creativity, and a future beyond our limited present. Desire can show itself as aching pain or delicious hope. Spirituality is, ultimately, about what we do with that desire. - ronald rolheiser

el nellis art

here is my new online portfolio.
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el nellis art

thanks to the design skills of mr. colquhoun of storyboard solutions.

of birds and bees

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