Monday, August 07, 2006
"what drives you? what are your core desires that shape you as a person, your life, your relationships, your hour-to-hour existence?" this question was poised this afternoon in class. i answered this question by looking at my day and the areas that draw my attention. i was struck with the realization that much of who i am is shaped by a deep desire to find the proverbial "diamond in the ruff"- this is why i devour books, search for new music, peruse thrift stores, recycle ideas... will i ever be satisfied? can i become less of a user and still want more out of life? how could this desire be directed more redemptively? should i learn to rest in what is instead of always push away and towards whatever lies beyond? and how does my view of hope play in? a good question begets more questions... ask it to yourself.
here is a beautiful quote linking desire to spirituality:
It is an unquenchable fire, a restlessness, a longing, a disquiet, a hunger, a loneliness, a gnawing nostalgia, a wildness that cannot be tamed, a congenital all-embracing ache that lies at the center of human experience and is the ultimate force that drives everything else. This dis-ease is universal. Desire gives no exemptions. It does however admit to different moods and faces. Sometimes it hits us as plain dissatisfaction, frustration, and aching. At other times its grip is not felt as painful at all, burns as a deep energy, as something beautiful, as an inexorable pull, more important than anything else inside us, toward love, beauty, creativity, and a future beyond our limited present. Desire can show itself as aching pain or delicious hope. Spirituality is, ultimately, about what we do with that desire. - ronald rolheiser